Saturday, April 29, 2006

Color Quiz result

I have been taking this exam for so many times over the years, and its the most accurate exam i found online, it really amazes me!



Your Existing Situation
Unable to exert the effort to achieve her objectives. Feels neglected, desiring greater security, warm affection, and fewer problems.
Your Stress Sources
Delights in the tasteful, the gracious, and the sensitive, but maintains her attitude of critical appraisal and refuses to be swept off her feet unless genuineness and integrity can be absolutely vouched for. Therefore keeps a strict and watchful control on her emotional relationships as she must know exactly where she stands. Demands complete sincerity as a protection against her own tendency to be too trusting.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Circumstances are such that she feels forced to compromise for the time being if she is to avoid being cut off from affection or from full participation.
Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left her listless and devoid of energy. In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied her
Circumstances are forcing her to compromise, to restrain her demands and hopes, and to forgo for the time being some of the things she wants
Your Desired Objective
Hopes that ties of affection and good-fellowship will bring release and contentment. Her own need for approval makes her ready to be of help to others and in exchange she wants warmth and understanding. Open to new ideas and possibilities which she hopes will prove fruitful and interesting.
Your Actual Problem
Intensely critical of the existing conditions which she feels are disorganized or insufficiently clear-cut. Is therefore seeking some solution which will clarify the situation and introduce a more acceptable degree of order and method.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Acceptance

yesterday I came to an important conclusion: I really accept the person that I have become...

I dont care any more if I didnt become what I always longed to be, or that I am no longer the person i used to be.

I dont care that i didnt accomplish all the things I wanted to accomplish, that I didnt become a world-renowned scholar, or that I have not written poetry, novels or books....

I DONT CARE

and further more I cannot relate anymore to the person I used to be, I can never become me again at 16 or 17 or 18..

I stopped crying for things I have lost, for things I have not had, on people who betrayed me. I have had well beyond my share of crying.

I have spent all of my life either thinking of what I should become in the future, or what I used to be in the past, or what I could have been...I have never thought of the present, for the first time, I am not thinking of the past or the future.. I DONT CARE

for the first time in my life, I am glad of what I have become, I am happy where I am.. and I dont care...

I came to an important realization : we spend our entire lifetime trying to know ourselves, and that's because of something important..we are never the same person throughout our lives....

I am tired of crying, I am tired of feeling helpless, I am tired of despair, and I am tired of depression... I am tired of trying to become something else other than myself.